There’s something about Christmas that always used to make me kind of sad. That’s probably pretty weird right? It IS the most wonderful time of the year after all. Mostly I felt really happy and excited as I put up the tree, wrapped presents, and read Christmas stories. I loved the time with family and appreciated the chance to truly focus on the Savior and celebrate His life. But the longing we felt for our baby was especially pronounced. It doesn’t seem right that such a joyful time should have been so hard but it was. (Here’s what I wrote back in December of 2010).
I MISSED the baby we always dreamed of sharing Christmas with. I missed him so bad it ached. No playing Santa. No wrapping toys. No little pajamas. We had no idea if we would ever get a chance to have any of those experiences. It was always so hard to let go of one more year of unfulfilled expectations.
The longing which used to haunt our Christmas season has been replaced with gratitude, Our hearts are so full this year. I was reading over past blog posts and was curious what my very first post on this blog looked like. It was a sweet coincidence that I had just taken this picture earlier that afternoon while we were getting out Christmas decorations:
We’re so glad he’s finally here.
So sweet. I love this post. I can relate to a lot of your past feelings during Christmas time. Mr. M is one handsome baby! Hope you and Spenc are doing well!
ReplyDeleteYou nailed my feelings right on the head about Christmas before we adopted.This is the fist Christmas I have looked forward to for a long time. By the way, you don't know me but I follow your blog and appreciate all your posts about loving adoption!
ReplyDeleteYou nailed my feelings on the head on how I felt about Christmas before we adopted. This is the first Christmas I have looked forward to for a long time. You don't know me but I love to follow your blog.
ReplyDeleteawwww! such a sweet picture!
ReplyDeleteIt is amazing! You just said so much of what I've been feeling the last few weeks. Thank you! I hope you have a very Happy Christmas!
DeleteIt is amazing! You just said so much of what I've been feeling the last few weeks. Thank you! I hope you have a very Happy Christmas!
DeleteI love the picture of Mr. M and his Christmas penguin. :) You write so beautifully and honestly, Whitney. Thank you for sharing your heart with all of us. Happy Christmas!!
ReplyDeleteThis is amazing! You just wrote so much of what I've been feeling/thinking the past few weeks. I hope you have a very Happy Christmas!
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